Yes, I am still writing.
Yes, I have managed to contract yet another viral illness, this time from a real estate agent who I will not be buying a house from.
Yes, I am still plodding along with my six day work week.
Yes, yes, I am still insane in the membrane.
Something cool happened today. After organizing for cleaners to pick up my keys at work, I skipped along in the happy knowledge that I had handed off one of my least favourite chores...
...only to be told that the room I would be facilitating my group in the dirtiest room of the building. Now, I'm pretty chillaxed with grubbiness. I wash my hands after I toilet, like any other decent human being, but I've always said that mess is a sign of activity.
But even I balked at this room. So there I was, sweating in my snazzy work shirt as I vacuumed the floor and sprayed down the tables. I have a bad back, so I can already hear my partner chiding me for doing this.
It was all worth it, of course, because then I got to have these amazing conversations with people.
We talked about how pain in life is inevitable, and why people suffer.
We spoke about politics and sports and chickens.
We ate chocolate and basked in poignant silences.
This made me realize (though, I've always known it, I suppose) that I will do whatever it takes to create meaningful experiences for my clients. Even if I have to spend ten minutes picking up wrappers of the floor. Even if I have to deviate from the textbook and all the material I've prepared. Whatever it takes, it's important for people to feel like actual people, like actual human beings. Not just a number, a box on a checklist, or some success story that gets circulated around the company so we can all pat ourselves on the back or whatever.
To be respected. To be heard. To speak. To listen. To accept that others are different, and that they have different opinions, and you don't have to agree, but that's ok. To make plans. To strive for something in an imperfect, random world. To feel without shame.
Yeah, thinking back, it was a great day.
And that is why we do this, bro.
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